Days off don't exist anymore

Still getting over the hack from last night. I know it's probably not a bit deal but I've always had a problem with a lack of justice or resolution, even over small things. I suppose it's to a fault. 

Anyway, I posted this on my Tumblr just a little but ago - figured it could go here as well. After all it hasn't ceased to be true in the last fifteen minutes. 

I'm not working 12 hours today selling pumps and heaters an swimming pool filters. But I do have a 100-page script to read, a movie to promote and very limited amounts of time to do it in. Working on my book is going to feel like a day at the beach comparatively.

To all (or currently my one) followers . . . I appreciate your ethereal presence as I just kind of ramble right now. Everywhere else in my life is pure WORK, plain and simple. It gets to be pretty overwhelming.

Though perhaps it's not so terrible... way less complicated than I'm making it out to be. I dunno about any of the rest of you, but I like to be the praying sort - as in, the sort who knows that prayer is a good thing regardless of how much you do it, but more is better and my lack of persistence works against that. Think of a piece of re-bar being stuck in the fire: the re-bar isn't hot without the fire, but once it's in the fire it stays hot even after it's been pulled out. And if you leave it in there long enough, well - you wind up with a glowing carbine that can be molded into any number of better things. I imagine that's something like what thrusting yourself into the presence of the Divine is like.

Anyway, that was a really long and drawn out way of saying that I had one of those moments last night that reminded me what that heat feels like - I sent up one of those "What the hell do I do now?" sort of prayers (and yes, I'm sure that God is bigger than my petty crudities) and the answer that came back was a very intelligent, "Why don't you try shutting up and calming down for a bit? You haven't even made any contact with your team yet.

This is true. I have a massive backbone, think-tank and more that is going into everything I'm trying to accomplish. I am working on directing about three major projects at once here and the thing that I most easily forget is that, 1) I have HELP for God's sake and 2) It's not going to happen over night. None of it. It took me over a year to even write 150 pages of my book let alone promote any of it, and it's going to take more than four days to build a reputable, credibly networking base to promote Killing Poe.

In light of that, perhaps days off actually need to be forced once in a while. Otherwise we all drop dead. 

Cheers. 

-errinyis